A Strange Guilt

When I had KKN, I met a lot of people. Usually, my group leader talked and introduce us to the people we met. He introduced not only our names but also our majors. He even called me "future doctor" or "doctor". 

To be honest, I felt guilty when someone introduce me as future doctor. Yes, it's true that I'm a medical student and I want to be a doctor. However, I feel that, I haven't tried my best in medical school. I waste a lot of my time  browsing random stuff or doing useless thing instead of studying. Many times I don't make good amount of preparation for tests or exams. The mistakes I make in OSCE are often caused by my lack of practice. Beside that, there are a lot of basic medical concept that I still don't understand. Being that kind of student, when my group leader introduced my as medical student, I sometimes wanted to scream, "Don't mention my major, please!"

It takes a great responsibility to be a doctor and when I think about my laziness and ignorance, I think I'm not ready yet to be one.

Gift for My Country

On August 17th, Indonesians celebrate the independence day. I remember on August 16th, 2010, I had a conversation with my mother. 

Mom: "Tomorrow is Indonesia's birthday."
Me    : "What present should we give?"
Mom: "Honesty."

Honesty would be a great gift for Indonesia. However, in my opinion, this country need not only honesty but also the ability to accept honesty.

36 Questions to Fall in Love

A while ago I watched a BuzzFeed video entitled "Falling In Love As A Grown-Up - Real Mature Ep. 1". In that video we see Zach tried the 36 questions to fall in love, with three different people. I sent the link to Lady Slytherin.

You can search the 36 questions in the internet. The idea is, there should be two people talk about the questions and their answer. After the conversation, they can fall in love. In my opinion, the questions aren't supposed to make you fall in love. It's supposed to make you open up more and know each other better.

Yesterday, I visit Lady Slytherin's boarding house and we tried the 36 questions. We had a good laugh while answering the questions. We did have deep conversation while answering some of the questions. However, there are some questions that made us tease each other. 

I had fun answering the 36 questions because I did it with my close friend. We usually comfortable with each other. I can't imagine if I were in Zach's position in the video. He had to answer the question with the girls who isn't his close friends. If I had to answer the questions with, let's say, my crush or any of the guy I know, I would be awkward. I would carefully choose my words since I'm sometimes afraid if people think I'm rude.

I then think that the 36 questions are also meant to find out whether someone makes you feel comfortable. Thus, you know if he or she is the right person to fall in love with.