A Strange Guilt

When I had KKN, I met a lot of people. Usually, my group leader talked and introduce us to the people we met. He introduced not only our names but also our majors. He even called me "future doctor" or "doctor". 

To be honest, I felt guilty when someone introduce me as future doctor. Yes, it's true that I'm a medical student and I want to be a doctor. However, I feel that, I haven't tried my best in medical school. I waste a lot of my time  browsing random stuff or doing useless thing instead of studying. Many times I don't make good amount of preparation for tests or exams. The mistakes I make in OSCE are often caused by my lack of practice. Beside that, there are a lot of basic medical concept that I still don't understand. Being that kind of student, when my group leader introduced my as medical student, I sometimes wanted to scream, "Don't mention my major, please!"

It takes a great responsibility to be a doctor and when I think about my laziness and ignorance, I think I'm not ready yet to be one.

Gift for My Country

On August 17th, Indonesians celebrate the independence day. I remember on August 16th, 2010, I had a conversation with my mother. 

Mom: "Tomorrow is Indonesia's birthday."
Me    : "What present should we give?"
Mom: "Honesty."

Honesty would be a great gift for Indonesia. However, in my opinion, this country need not only honesty but also the ability to accept honesty.

36 Questions to Fall in Love

A while ago I watched a BuzzFeed video entitled "Falling In Love As A Grown-Up - Real Mature Ep. 1". In that video we see Zach tried the 36 questions to fall in love, with three different people. I sent the link to Lady Slytherin.

You can search the 36 questions in the internet. The idea is, there should be two people talk about the questions and their answer. After the conversation, they can fall in love. In my opinion, the questions aren't supposed to make you fall in love. It's supposed to make you open up more and know each other better.

Yesterday, I visit Lady Slytherin's boarding house and we tried the 36 questions. We had a good laugh while answering the questions. We did have deep conversation while answering some of the questions. However, there are some questions that made us tease each other. 

I had fun answering the 36 questions because I did it with my close friend. We usually comfortable with each other. I can't imagine if I were in Zach's position in the video. He had to answer the question with the girls who isn't his close friends. If I had to answer the questions with, let's say, my crush or any of the guy I know, I would be awkward. I would carefully choose my words since I'm sometimes afraid if people think I'm rude.

I then think that the 36 questions are also meant to find out whether someone makes you feel comfortable. Thus, you know if he or she is the right person to fall in love with.

Cat's Cradle Again

One saying that I remember from Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut is about maturity. Frank Hoenikker said, "Maturity, the way I understand it, is knowing what your limitations are."
What is maturity for you?

When I Read Cat's Cradle

I've just finished Kurt Vonnegut's novel, Cat's Cradle. I'm not going to write a review. I just want to write how I feel.
When I read the beginning, I was amused. As the story went, I became curious and surprised. When the story ended, I felt empty. I feel like, "So it ends? There are still more to tell."
Now I'm reading another book.

Realisation before Crush

How do you call the moment when you almost have crush on someone but then you realise you can't be together?

Seven More Facts about Me

I got a "Beautiful Blogger Award" from Owlivia (Untainted and Odd). Thank you, Owlivia. You're such a nice friend I have in bloggerland.

The rules for this award are:
1. thank the blogger who nominates you
2. list 7 random facts about yourself
3. nominate 7 other bloggers.

Here I present 7 more facts about me (I've written "7 facts" posts before).
1. I learn to do five basic wushu stances from the internet. I hope I can learn wushu in real class.
2. When I want to send snail mail to a penpal whom I meet in the internet, I use my campus address.
3. I'm lazy to change my profile picture in any social media.
4. I'm both liberal and conservative (what?) but I'm a bit more conservative.
5. I like to eat mushroom.
6. I love animal but I eat meat. If you call me hypocrite, that's okay. I respect your opinion.
7. I have a lot of T-shirts with "Solo" written on it. I think I will write about the T-shirts sometime.

Sorry, now I'm using phone so it's difficult to create link. I can't nominate other bloggers now.